Confusion

Sometimes you hit a pothole that is way to big. I feel like I currently have hit thar. I know my pelvic floor is playing a role and I know what I need to do. The question is there something else contributing to my frustrating predicament I don’t know. I see mixed answers.

I can’t stomach another procedure that would show nothing and endure more just confusion as to why my body is just the way it is. Yes I know my past plays a role but it’s good to rule out others. 

Right now just lost and scared and giving up. Yep the fight inside me and the positive beam is having trouble. I’m looking to god and praying. But struggling . Trying to figure it out. 

Meanwhile my bodies response to my set back with Asnismus and PFD was constipation: stool softener and all that stuff . Nothing . Two edemas nothing:

Now back pain and pain in abdomen and bloating and gas and frustration. Still working and still living life. If you ask I will say okay